symptom free???

not quite there yet. i'm even ashamed to admit that i sort of went back to my old ways of eating. now, i'm back to 141 lbs since the last time i weighed myself, the same time i last wrote here. almost exactly a year ago. i regained the 10 lbs from the 18 lbs i lost when i was strict about going on a diet to manage my symptoms.

is there an option C

my hormones are out of whack since i was 12 years old.

the past 6 months, though i still bleed heavily during the withdrawal period, i'd say my menstrual cycle was heavenly good. heavenly great in the sense that they come and disappear on a very REGULAR basis. so regular in fact that it usually appears on a Friday afternoon and be gone sometime on a Monday. generally, gone were the days when i would bleed for weeks.

now, i am supposed to take my 7th pack of ocp,

diet violation

just when i was truly proud and shouted to the world about altering my diet to curb the symptoms of my adenomyosis, i did a major blunder today. TWICE - imagine that!

Is the Diet Working?

I'd like to believe it IS.

Early this year, I had the worst of my adenomyosis symptoms. I was heavily bleeding [think at least 10 CR trips a day + half fist-sized blood clots + more or less 20 pads in 3 days] and had excruciating pain around my pelvic area and lower back for more than five days.

WARNING: gross picture!

a struggle

i have adenomyosis. it's that condition wherein the uterine lining (that thing that lines the uterus in preparation for possible pregnancy) penetrates the uterine muscles, where it shouldn't have. because of this condition, a regular menstrual cycle for me usually involve heavy bleeding (think miscarriage proportions, where big blood clots are discharged!) and 10 out of 10 intense muscle cramping. i've had this condition since i was twelve years old. however,

a while back..

.... i made a promise to self that i will stop blogging about my beautiful uterus' condition. i made that promise because i thought paying too much attention to my beautiful u only aggravates things. that somehow, my world revolves around it so much, which is really sad to my mind.

but recent events are making me break that promise. i guess, i will just have to admit

welcoming the pain, thanks to terry fox

the salient thoughts running in my head right now are the following:

-i'm in pain, but i'm not dying. i will not die from this pain.
-i actually have several options when my pain and bleeding symptoms are at their peak:
a) i can just take in all the pain, and not complain
b) i can be proactive about the whole thing
c) i can hit my little yoga room and "try to" meditate the pain away
d) i can curse the too much blood clots coming out of my vagina
e)